March 2nd will be three months of BVT, and yesterday’s sting session put me at 302 stings. So far I haven’t had any noticeable symptoms improve, but I am very early on in the scheme of things. It’s challenging to sting yourself with bees when you don’t see positive changes. Hope of getting my life back keeps me going, along with determination and maybe a little bit of desperation. The past few days I’ve had a bad chest cold and a lot of trouble breathing, so we’ve been monitoring my oxygen levels. (Which are great thankfully!) I’m amazed at my pulse- cardiac symptoms have been a huge issue for me, and throughout the past few years my resting heart rate is always over 100, and often between 120 and 150. I honestly can’t remember the last time my pulse was in the 70s. BVT has given me a NORMAL pulse! Cold hard facts that the bees are working!
I didn’t really notice that my tachycardia had improved, because I’m still having a lot of chest and rib pain. Those usually go along with my tachycardia, so I didn’t even think about my heart rate possibly being better. Just goes to show you can be healing and not realize it until it stares you in the face! Sometimes when you’re feeling so terrible overall, you miss the little improvements. I do believe that a lot of my cardiac symptoms are caused by viral issues, as when I did herbal anti virals my symptoms would go away for a period of time. BVT is quick and effective at addressing viral issues. The first few weeks when I had such high fevers after stinging- those fevers were directly related to viruses dying off.
I am still having very high pain, fatigue and brain fog. My anxiety is still severe at times, but has improved since weeks 5-10 thankfully! I told myself when I started BVT that I wouldn’t put a timeline on my healing. I feel like comparison can cause such discouragement when you’re desperately wanting your health and life back. I have total confidence that bee venom will work for me, but when I do not know. Each person is different in how many co infections they have, how effected all their organs are, how functioning their adrenals and thyroid are, etc. We can’t expect to all follow the same timeline and heal at the same pace. I do know that my brain, heart, organs, adrenals and thyroid are all significantly effected. My body is pretty worn down after fighting for nine years. I just need to be patient and wait for the bees to work, and do everything I can to help the healing process.
I’m really happy to report that I started riding lessons a few weeks ago! I have missed horses so much and am really happy to have them in my life again. I’m taking English lessons and hoping to focus on Dressage in the future. I’m just doing lessons every other week for now, as I know my body needs a lot of recovery time. I could barely walk for four days after my first lesson! I am hoping that as I continue to ride my muscles and joints will adjust and become less painful. I know that this is a really good thing for me, even though it’s incredibly hard. It’s therapeutic on emotional, mental and physical levels! I have bad muscle atrophy and I know riding will help build up some of that lost muscle. Being at the barn makes me so happy and helps me feel like I’m getting a little piece of my life back! I can’t wait for my lesson on Thursday.
Thank you all for reading. I’ll try to be better about updating!